inner confrontation

I need to be honest with myself because I deserve that much. I used to hear people in movies say that they had been running for so long that they forgot what they were running from in the first place. Now I understand what that really means because I'm at that point myself. I was even trying to escape the fact that I needed to confront my own fears. It was cowardly of me, but I accept that now.

I won't let my own self-doubt and fears consume me anymore. I'm strong enough to face whatever is eating away at me inside. I know I've had reasons for feeling this way, but it's always been up to me to decide how to react. I don't need to sacrifice the good and naive in me to prove my strength. Whatever this is, I'll go through it. When the darkness comes back, I'll sit alone in the middle of the room and feel the weight of my pain. I'll pray for strength and guidance, and I'll hug myself and kiss my own shoulder. This is what I need, and I believe it's what most of us need.

Validation needs to come from within. Seeking it outside only leads to exhaustion and confusion. I used to wonder where I went wrong, but I could never figure it out until I turned inward. So now I'm willing to stay inside, even if it's pitch black. I'll love that darkness because it's mine. And by facing it, I'll emerge stronger and more resilient than before.