broken pieces

I'm interested neither in the past nor in the future. I breathe out. I realize I've been holding it for a long time. It happens quite often. I am too anxious to look at someone else's eyes. I am too worried to speak my mind. I have some solid borders out of my comfort zone. I take a deep breath. I realize I've been clenching my teeth. I realize clenching my teeth is a sign from my body that I've been clenching my heart by being busy with my head. No. I don't want to rush. No. I don't want to say anything. I have to figure that out on my own.
Incidents or people that have broken you into pieces have happened to teach you. I want to see it this way but I don't intend to collect and stick those pieces together. I don't intend to fake it that I'm whole and okay because I'm not. Incidents or people that have broken me into peaces have happened to teach me. Do not clench your teeth. Do not hold your breath. Do not be interested in your past. Do not look forward to your future. It's okay not to be a whole, that means there are more ways to love yourself than you've thought of. Sometimes I burst into into tears out of nothing. Sometimes I want to scream out of nothing. Sometimes, especially after a yoga class, I want to laugh my heart out loud.  Even though I don't name the reasons, I can feel them. Choose to trust your heart over your mind. Choose to forgive. Take a deep breath. I'm not interested neither in the past nor in the future and that is because I cannot breathe in those places.