living with social anxiety

I have been in Bali for two days and this is my first vacation that I am all alone. I can say it is a highly challenging situation for me since I am a completely introvert person. I am that girl who would rather to be left alone in her corner instead of socializing with someone. A book or something to watch is always better than speaking with others because these don't give me heart attacks. Here in Bali though, it is not the issue even for me. Everyone I have met is so friendly and warm that without noticing they become a part of my life, a memory that I'm going to remember even years later.  I have evaluated my personal achievements and here are the things this journey has taught me:

 1.  I should not be afraid of people if I have no reason.
 2. I can only beat my anxiety if I take it slow and be good to myself. I should admit that I have nothing wrong to hide.
 3. Being an introvert does not mean that I am not funny or interesting. I just need some time to speak more comfortably.
 4. I constantly compare myself with other people almost for everything, which gives me more anxiety, so I should stop doing that but I haven't known yet how.
 5. I need people! I have never realized this until an Indonesian lady who was selling bracelets came and started to speak with me. She even knew some Turkish because she said she worked in Antalya for one year. It felt me extremely good to find a common thing with a random stranger and I was relieved to see that I could, too, socialize with strangers and have fun!

 I am extremely bad at crisis management. When something bad happens and I lose the control, I just cannot leave it there and I can't accept the fact that I can fail. I just always push too hard to achieve something I want, even the smallest things like my meal choices, I become disturbingly angry and manipulative. I know myself but I cannot embrace my emotions when they are there. Feeling nervous, for example. I cannot decide what to do or how I should react when I am nervous so I just cry out loud or harm myself. I don't think properly and I make bad decisions that will hurt me in the end. When it all passes , though, I sit and contemplate on it to analyze everything I feel.

Baby steps but I'm learning!
If you are too struggling with social anxiety, look at those 5 things I have managed to find out for myself. Does that make sense to you? We can beat this monster! First step is accepting it. Next time when you're sweating and your hands are shaking just because you need to speak with people (this could be even for ordering food at a cafe) remind yourself these 5 things.  I will do so while I am counting my breaths. Namaste!