calming the waves, unveiling the self

Since I stopped associating myself with my thoughts, I have been more relieved than ever in my mind. Because I realized that all my thoughts were coming from others attentions, desires, habits or actions. I was being driven by other peoples reflections. We are not aware of this fact unless we start to meditate on them. When I get very angry with someone or something, for example, I am driven by the anger caused by a reflection of someone else or of something else. I let my anger conquer my mind. Am I too shallow to describe myself as angry? When we say “I am angry”, it becomes our truth. However, being indifferent to all those negativity, to all those pessimistic ideas or situations created by others (or created by our own minds but because of others) or to the things that we recall problematic is the way to calm ourselves to find what lies behind our minds. Human beings are often under the illusion that they are what they think. Thoughts are only the reflections of the things you know, you see, you experience. They do not describe you. You have to uncover your thoughts and control your emotions to see what you are, actually.

“The most ignorant man thinks his body is the Soul. The more learned man thinks his mind is the Soul, but both of these are mistaken. What makes the Soul get mingled up with all this, these different waves in the Chitta rise and cover the Soul, and we only are a little reflection of the Soul through these waves, so, if the wave be one of anger, we see the Soul as angry: “I am angry,” we say. If the wave is a wave of love we see ourselves reflected in that wave, and say we are loving. If that wave is one of weakness, and the Soul is reflected in it, we think we are weak. These various ideas come from these impressions, these Samskaras covering the Soul. The real nature of the Soul is not perceived until all the waves have subsided; so, first, Patanjali teaches us the meaning of these waves; secondly, the best way to repress them; and thirdly, how to make one wave so strong as to suppress all other waves, fire eating fire as it were. When only one remains, it will be easy to suppress that also, and when that is gone, this Samadhi of concentration is called seedless; it leaves nothing, and the Soul is manifested just as It is, in Its own glory. Then alone we know that the Soul is not a compound, It is the only eternal simple in the universe, and, as such, It cannot be born, It cannot die, It is immortal, indestructible, the Ever-living Essence of intelligence.”