dedicate - day 3

I haven’t noticed seated pose has become a challenge for me. It gives pain to my lower back and I want to quit immediately. Instead, I try to make some movements and try to stand tall. I hope my body will again gain that natural spine. I guess Adriene is trying her yogis to get used to that seated postures since she knows it’s a real challenge to continue to seat tall after a couple of minutes. It’ inevitable to collapse for someone who aren’t used to it.

It is 3^rd day and she speaks a lot in the beginning of the videos and does the same stretching movements in the crossed legged seated position. I hope this belly ache will go away after a few days. I am worrying if I am doing something wrong at the same time. Confused about it but we’ll see. I need to take it slower.

Warrior one is her favourite pose I guess. In one of her videos she calls the pose "the last warrior" because nobody really cares about that asana anymore. A funny approach that is. But it enlightened me during today's practice. 

I observed.

“Invitation is to see if you can allow yourself to become the observer. As we allow ourselves to become the observer inevitably we also realise we are both the observer and the one being observed. So you fluctuate between those two roles.”

We do observe things, we do without even noticing, yet most of them are generally physical things such as the colours of pullovers people wear or the brands of cars we see on the street. We unconsciously view or realise something and then think on it to comment or to make an inference. It is a part of our daily lives, our nature. It is a condition of being a human. But don’t we feel lost running from that thought to another? Don’t we get tired of facing all those things that are told meaningful for us to do?

Today Adriene has provided me this perspective. We don’t observe ourselves. I am not talking about our physical appearance. I am talking about our TRUE selves. The pure one. The organic one. We don’t listen to our inner voice, we neglect our wishes, and we don’t even try to understand what we genuinely want. We mostly play the role of the observer of the outside world. What about starting from the very beginning and make some effort to pay attention to your thoughts? What about first knowing thyself and then focusing on all the things happening in your life? Without knowing, you cannot experience. Without experience, you cannot accept. Without acceptance, thou canst be happy.

I am so grateful, for I can at least give a chance to my body and mind to acknowledge my being more. Realising all of these things while trying to involve my left inner thigh to my warrior one pose, it is real fun though. But it’s something! That warrior one has enabled me to write all of those things. My left inner thigh made me think that “Wow, everything is a part of something”. Go and take that part of yours, it’s all in you!