wish you a happy journey in 2019

This year I chose a different path. Instead of crying and being sad I chose to be on my yoga mat. I tried to put away those anxiety attacks and bunch of negative assumptions that I created all the time. I chose to listen to myself and to stop for a minute to think. I investigated what I desired and what I did not. I chose to be a new me with much more fluidity and calmness.

Of course there were times that I wanted to smash and break everything but wasn’t I doing those kinds of things for years? This year, I asked myself so many questions which often began with “why” and I didn’t look away for the answers. I didn’t blame anyone or any certain incident for the times I yelled at myself through the mirror “why” because it was me who needed to have the answers. It was me who could only decode the whole puzzle creeping in my head. It was me that made me sad or happy or excited or overwhelmed or anything. It was all me.  

It is true I brought this awareness into my life with my yoga practice. I bowed to myself, I admired myself, I encouraged myself, I comforted myself and I loved myself this year. I learnt to love myself. What a powerful sentence. It was not about those postures I was able to do. It was about that urge bringing me on the mat. It was that almost instinctive feeling I experienced there. I let yoga be my tool this year. A tool to find a better version of me. A tool to discover the diamonds in me.

I don’t need anywhere else in the world but my own body. It is the one and only thing that I will have throughout my journey on this planet. I know I will come to know so many different and odd things about it as long as I am willing to find out. I know it’s a never ending process. I know, because it is simply life. What I am doing on the mat is a real reflection of my thoughts, attitudes, abilities and characteristics.

I will not say I owe too much to yoga because I owe too much to myself, for I chose to be an adventurer through my inner self. Maybe that’s why I embraced all of the things 2018 made me confront. I have this tiny little fear that I could fail myself in 2019 by not achieving my goals. It is the fear of obscurity. But once you appreciate the value of the moment you live in, the rest becomes an adventure. I wish you have a happy journey in 2019. Namaste.