milestone

I know I really have to keep my shit together and turn back to my regular practice. I know if I do so, I will be feel much better. What prevents me from this is my life basically.

I cannot find enough courage inside me to move on. It scares me that I will not be able to stick with my yoga practice as passionately as once I was. Though it was not long ago, I feel like years passed. I don’t want to spend my nights with it, I’ve decided on that. So, I will try to do yoga in the morning, which means I need to wake up 1 hour earlier.

Actually in these days I cannot focus on anything. It’s not all about yoga. I just don’t feel like I can achieve anything. It’s a little bit depressive thought, yeah, but I am fighting with it. Surely yoga and meditation will be the seeds that can save me from toxic directives of my brain. I don’t want to be at a war with myself anymore. It’s not even the case.

I need to show some effort to actualise my goals. I need to prove that I can do what I want and time is not my enemy. I need to declare first to myself than to the world that illumination is possible only by accepting the situation you are in both mentally and physically. My mind is blown. My body is deformed. But I am ready to move on.

Let’s do it together.