day ??? (I guess 85 it is)

I DON’T KNOW WHY I DON’T WANT TO WRITE ANYTHING.

I just don’t. I am sad because I’ve come this far eagerly, I’ve practiced regularly, done my best, and loved being here. Writing is one of the most significant part of this yoga challenge and now look at me, although I do yoga every damn day I do not want to write anything…

You know after I finished Fiji’s 14 day yoga challenge I didn’t start a new series and in near future I am not intended to do so too. Today I did yoga without following any videos. I created my own flow and stretched my body considerably. I tried to stay stable at some asanas such as cobra, forward fold and warrior two. The fact that I don’t need to restrict my posture with a limited time has made me feel more capable.

The second thing that upsets me most is that I’ve stopped reading about yoga – actually about anything. My life is in such a rush that I don’t bother myself creating time for downloading an e-book. Am I getting lazier AGAIN? Yeah, thinking all of these and confessing them here is embarrassing me but I guess it could be a good sign to gain the discipline again. I don’t want to waste my time. Now is everything I have but I am forgetting to act accordingly these days.

I need to reobtain that energy inside of me pushing my limits to have the best. For example for fucking 80 days I couldn’t achieve to plan diet. I still eat lots of junk food. I drink alcohol. What about respecting my body? What about preserving my muscles? What about being a proper yogi in a modern world? Let me tell you friends, it is almost impossible to do all the things you wish to if you are a modern slave. But I haven’t given up yet. Every time I stop I will have myself to remind me that I am on a journey and it’s called life. Simple.

Do you remember that I wrote here I would do some planning for November to gain flexibility over my back and waist? Today I discovered that to increase your flexibility you need to stay at the pose and improve it by your breath step by step. As Fiji says, one millimetre at a time.

I am not sure if I will be able to keep my new promises so I will not write them here directly but now I know what I am thinking and I know what I want.

So, keep doing what you believe.