day 90 !!!!!!!!!!!!! i am still here

It has been 5 days since I last wrote here…

Today is the 90^th day since I started to write here.

I don’t know how I can prove that I am not losing my interest but trying so hard to spare time for writing here. I am not at the exact point I wanted to be 3 months ago. I am still not disciplined enough and continuing to postpone things I shouldn’t.

I cannot eat clean. I cannot practice regularly since the beginning of November. I know I am losing my flexibility and practice improvement. It is getting harder to come back to my mat after a long break though the longest break I had was for 5 days. Now, I am doing yoga but it is not enough for me. I am not satisfied with my own practice so what’s the point of writing about it here? I should keep my shit together and do something BETTER to move on.

I am not following any instructors or youtube channels at the moment. I tried to catch up my own rhythm through a flow I created 3 days ago. It is easier to focus on your brain and mind if you are not looking at a screen and listening to anybody. However, it is more difficult to find something to do between your asanas. The connection between your movements is everything while you’re doing yoga. I don’t want to plan anything before it, but I think being fluid like water on the mat is only possible by more and more practice.

November is coming to an end. The year 2018 is coming to an end. So, I think the last month of this year needs to be filled with yoga in order to welcome new year with a more peaceful, calm and loving mind & self.  I am preparing a new monthly calendar to follow. Without commitment and practice I can go nowhere.

“The young, the old, the extremely aged, even the sick and infirm obtain perfection in Yoga by constant practice. Success will follow him who practises, not him who practises not. Success in Yoga is not obtained by the mere theoretical reading of sacred texts. Success in not obtained by wearing the dress of a yogi or a sanyasi (a recluse), nor by talking about it. Constant practice alone is the secret of success. Verily, there is no doubt of this.”