day 77 & 78 - time is not the enemy

I did yoga with a completely new instructor today because why not? This is one of the best sides of home practice. You can choose whoever you want at any time you wish. No time restriction, no show off with your flexibility, no need to dress up fancy pants. Besides, it is totally free! But let’s admit the fact that you can easily hurt yourself. In today’s video Morgan said a very beautiful thing about it, something like “there is that discomfort and the hurting. The difference is you can push yourself to reach more when it is only a discomfort” The sentence she says is not like that exactly but the meaning is so. My point here is that I injured my lower back while I was trying to find the perfectness in my camel pose. I stayed in the pose like 2 minutes or something and after some time I guess I leaned so much that my waist hurt and I was dissolved from the pose immediately. Now I know it was the wrong movement because I needed to take it even more slowly. However, during that one week when I almost didn’t do yoga, my back continued to hurt. Secondly, I injured the back of my right upper leg while I was trying to stretch it like in utthita hasta padangustasana. My excuse is even worse because I was drunk while I was doing that. HaHa. For the last 3 days it has become more difficult for me to perform some certain postures, even the simplest ones, for example downward facing dog. It was hard to straighten my leg while two parts of my body were aching. Especially yesterday with Fiji, I was literally running behind her to catch her arm and say “Madam, could you please take it easier and slower? Plus, let’s not stay in that chair pose for a long time.” Yeah, of course I couldn’t. These are the pros and cons of home yoga practices if you ask me. Thanks.

Let’s talk about my new online instructor although she does not know that she is teaching me. Before her I tried another randomly chosen video on youtube but I didn’t like the lady’s voice and way of speech. I know it may sound stupid to you since what matters is HOW she teaches, yet still… I thought I cannot focus on the tranquillity while I am hearing that voice… Of course I will not tell her name. Do not expect anything about it. Anyways, afterwards I googled Morgan Haley with whom I did yoga today. I can describe her as a bunch of positivity. I even found an interview about her and you may read it by clicking here too. The beginning paragraph on that page enlightened my evening and even encouraged me. On these days where we are all struggling with 9 to 6 jobs as the youth of technology, seeing people chasing after their dreams and finding a way to perform it is just mind-blowingly nice. She seems a very honest and cheerful person to me. I know coming into those conclusions are not real and my opinions on someone I know from the internet can be reached only through some points, yet I am saying what I am feeling. That’s all.

My leg and lower back are much better today. Takin Morgan’s class and doing lots of stretching calmly even carried the pain away I can say. During my daily life I am always in such a rush that I sometimes forget what I am doing because my head jumps from one thought to another while I am doing something completely different! You know that’s a part of life as well but why not take simplicity over chaos? I try my best. As long as I have myself I get the whole time in the world anyways! So, today in the metro station whilst I was running to catch the train I reminded myself that I didn’t need to hurry up because arriving at home 5 minutes earlier or late would not change anything in my life. Being relax is the key and only by that you can enjoy every minute. This may be a simple example of my point but I am at the right corner, I know. At the beginning of the video Morgan had me by simply saying “We are not rushing anywhere” Yeah, woman! That is the case totally. I am here to do yoga, to care myself, to spend time with MYSELF. Why should I act as if someone is chasing me?

Yesterday while I tried with Fiji I was unable to perform this pose. I couldn’t even touch my toes. Today after some unflinching stretching, I did I could do it. To not to hurt myself again, both physically and emotionally, I am taking it more slowly you see, time is not the enemy.