day 75 - enlightened

Hey pals,

It is the seventh day that I have not written here. I do not feel as guilty as I thought I was going to be. Why did I stop doing yoga? I didn’t though I only stepped on my mat twice during this week. Why? I am telling everything on my mind here. Doing yoga every day after coming home from work had turned into a daily task for me. Rather than releasing my body and mind, I felt I was obliged to do yoga because I made a promise to myself and if I didn’t I would fail. Instead of doing yoga or coming home after work I socialized and spent a lot of time with friends and family. Is it an excuse not to do it? Of course not. I just chose to not to do it because I was tired of that rush. I wasn’t thinking to have a break when I was unintentionally having a break… Days passed, I didn’t even attempt to show up on the mat. I didn’t care whether I was back of my schedule. I didn’t care that my body improvement would slow down or even degrade. I didn’t fight with myself for it. I respected the decision I made though I did it indirectly. However, I started to feel awkward. Something was missing in my life, something was wrong but I didn’t suppose that was yoga. You know that feeling, you come into a room to do something in your mind but then forget about it and say to yourself “What the fuck am I going to do?” Avoiding from my yoga sessions made me feel exactly like this.

Having a break of almost one week away from the blog, writing about yoga and doing yoga has taught me I cannot live without it anymore. I can even say this is a kind of addiction because my body was screaming to me “Do some stretching please Necla please give us some space to reach more” My shoulders were aching. My legs were as hard as tree trunks. More importantly my mind was yearning for some space as well. I notice how important to spare some 30 minutes only for yourself when you explore your true connection with the world and within your substances. Now I am asking you people, how the hell you are able to live without yoga? It brings so much relief, simplicity, clarity, happiness, love, empathy and respect that I can only see now.

I have bad news as well. I did 13^th day of Fiji’s challenge, which means only one day left. It was really difficult for me to complete the whole video! I couldn’t perform some of the asanas thoroughly and needed to take a step back to rest. It is unbelievable because just one week ago I was able to do all of those postures and flows easily. Besides, the session consisted of twists so the movements were not so hard. Yeah, it is a regression officially and now I am announcing it. (No photos so no proofs)

On the 75^th day of my yoga progress, I am proudly telling you that I am back after 7 days. Now I know what doing yoga means for me. I know the difference between obligation and necessity. I opened this blog to discipline myself and it worked really well because now I can even continue to do yoga every day without it. Do not worry though I will keep writing because I love it!

Till tomorrow, Namaste!