day 65, 66, 67 - can't talk chakra opening only

I have been trying hard to keep myself motivated. This motivation is not about my yoga because yoga is the only thing I have found myself in. It’s this blog. I am not as inspired as I was for writing here. In the beginning I thought “Yeah I can share my experience, maybe tell people what to do, how to do, maybe guide them or inspire them. Why not?” But now, it seems unnecessary to me. Not because nobody is reading but because I don’t know what to say to you. It’s possible that the situation is temporary, I don’t know. In these days I am not interested in writing, that’s all.

I skipped too many days towards the end of October, I am also aware of that but not worried. Those days I skipped taught me that how much I need to do yoga. How careless and unconscious I become about myself if I don’t be at present on my mat. It is a good to know that too.

I observe changes in my body. Fiji’s 14 day challenge made my muscles grow bigger and stronger, especially arm and back muscles. I guess I mentioned before that my flexibility improving had stopped. I should plan something to increase my abilities and strength. I unfortunately gave up going to a yoga training course. It was completely up to me, everything was ready and arranged but I chose not to go there. I thought why not developing my skills here at home through my blog, books and videos? Surely I can. There are also tons of yoga teachers I can reach if I really need to. I don’t mind having an approved certificate at this point. Someday, I will have it as well, don’t worry.

To feel more dedicated and to learn more I started to read Light on Yoga by B.K.S Iyengar. Everyone talks about this book like it is a divine object for yogis so I wondered what was the magi lying beneath. I will of course share my opinions about it. By the way I gave up reading Osho because it got me bored. Maybe it is because of the translation I don’t know. Mainly he is cool and he offers really good solutions. Nevertheless, he does not show the way, he only tells.

Today I bought a new mat from BIM because it was cheap and nice. (My cats ate my current mat sadly. They eat it and then throw up the pieces…) I am doing these to increase my interest in showing up here. What prevents me most is my life simply. I find time to do yoga but not to write something about it, at least not anymore. People living with me started to complain about the situation by saying that I didn’t have time for them now what I only did was yoga, yoga, and yoga. It felt me bad. I wish they joined me on the mat.

Today’s yoga session was 38 mins and I couldn’t stop smiling after it. I relaxed completely. My every cell was spreading energy. After spending some time in camel’s pose I realised how much pain I had in my lower back. Camel pose is great to release unnoticed tension & knots there. It helps you to open your heart chakra, too! I really want my spinal flexibility to grow. I was intending to do something about this matter in November but apparently I will not. I did some research on Google and YouTube to find some more new videos randomly. I am not focusing on anything I guess. There is no video for spinal flexibility (I don’t even know if there is such thing). We’ll see.