DAY 50. UNWILLING TO DO YOGA

today's mood [credits]

I didn’t want to do yoga on day 50. I just didn’t. Maybe this was the first time that ever I was this much unwilling to step onto my mat. I came home, ate something and read tweets. Did nothing. Wasted my time. I needed that but after some time I found myself searching for a yoga video suiting my mood. “Yoga for self doubt”

me at the beginning of the practice

16 mins of mini yoga practice. The whole video is like one full deep breath. It worked. If I had missed today’s practice I would be so sad right now. It’s day 50. Oh my god.

I guess you have already understood I am unwilling to write a blog post as well. I am too reckless to pay attention to something today. I have been behaving very very VERY bad to my body for the last 36 hours. She didn’t deserve this. This is maybe a self-defence of my brain. “Hello Necla I know you like writing this blog shit but you don’t think about your poor internal organs and act like a stupid so I will not let you produce something good today. Shame on you girl. Take this as a lesson.” Yeah why not? Well done brain…

ALSO today I sighed to those beautiful & flexible yogis’ Instagram accounts. They seem too flawless and it makes me feel like a rubbish can. SAD. I know all of them works very hard to achieve those moves. I wish I could have more time to practice yoga at ease. This is the best I can do for myself though.

at the end of the practice

Maybe this time my foot didn’t reach my back but one day it will. In just 50 days with regular practice I could do bakasana and start to arm balance exercises. Everything is possible unless you think the opposite. “You gotta trust that this is a mere moment in time and you’re in the driver seat.”