day 49 - self-respect

Hello to all!!!

I woke up earlier today, did some changes on my blog. Seeing the same colours all the time is boring and change is exactly good! Here is a new fresh look with a background pic and different colours. I hope everyone visiting the page enjoys.

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You know my standing wide legged forward fold video has turned out to be a disappointment. I don’t follow the video but try to do that pose through my own directives and I usually do this at the end of my practice. On my schedule it says I need to take a core practice today. So I wrote “yoga core practice” on youtube and chose a video that I hadn’t applied before (of course from Adriene). I don’t know why I am so obsessed with doing yoga with the same woman. I guess it’s because she is my initial teacher and I love her no matter what… Wtf am I saying I don’t know! Look at me! Having some deep feelings for my online yoga teacher whom I have never met or seen in real life. Duh.

I have a problem about core practices. Most of them are applied while you are lying on your back on the mat. That’s okay. However, when I need to lift my neck, head and shoulders to do some crunch-like pose my neck hurts so fucking much that I cannot complete the action (at least today this is what happened). So, today I have figured out I shouldn’t give my whole weight to my neck while I am lifting my upper body. Instead, I should tighten and get strength from especially my abdominal muscles as well as legs. When I tried to do like this, the pain in my neck was relieved. Learnt something new, hurray!

I haven’t done anything to get my body ready for prasarita padottanasana. Neither my legs nor my back is stretched out to perform it. Bending forward in these conditions can become really painful and unnecessarily difficult. I just quickly checked if I could do or not but I couldn’t. Forward folds need really patience and regular practice. I will keep trying to be at this posture tirelessly though today I am not in the mood for it… Maybe in the evening…

When I was going to the gym or exercising at home my mind didn’t stop. It kept thinking about everything from cleaning the house to a friend that I hadn’t seen for a while. Here on yoga mat the case is not the same. I don’t try not to think but I realise my brain silently watches and obeys my moves. I can almost say it is being respectful for my yoga! Maybe this is why all yogis say doing yoga improves your self-respect and self-love. It’s natural, instinctive, and beautiful.

Writing this kind of things make me embarrassed by the way… There are two personalities battling inside of me about this blog. One of them says you go girl yeah write anything you care about yoga because you are here to do so whilst the other one nudges me to write just the physical side of my practice such as how to do this asana how to do that flow, stretching etc. However, I am aware yoga is not only physical but also spiritual. Whatever I am doing I am doing because I like it. Namaste.