day 38 & 39 - have a fearless day

Dear friends who have time to see these lines,

I wrote a lot of things for the past two days but unfortunately my computer went crazy before I could save the document. I will not try to write the same things again because it is not possible to feel the same. This blog consists of my present and random thoughts so I cannot bring the time back and cannot express my feelings with the same words.

I am not focusing any asana or flow in these days. I do not have the energy to decide. I am only doing yoga through the videos I choose every day. On the 38^th day I took Adriene’s “movement medicine” video which was only 17 minutes. In the entire day I spared 17 minutes for my lovely self I tried to awaken my energy. Short sessions have bigger effects because they are full of dynamic flows and postures. I am not sure if I am using my energy to feel good, I am not sure of anything. I keep doing yoga. I keep trying to be in the present because I have had experience enough to learn that being in the future only brings more worries into my life.

My side planks are still not good and they make my arms shake. I need to strengthen my arm muscles I know. I am aware of so many things, yet I don’t know where to start. (I have already started I know. This blog is the proof.)

Today, on the 39^th day of my journey, I skated, which caused a 15 minutes of yoga. I chose “Sunrise” video of Adriene though it was almost midnight when I was doing it.

Both yesterday’s and today’s practices are full of forward folds and I like them very much! That asana provides me a clear, relax, peaceful mind. I forget my body, my physical awareness almost completely in forward folds, they are good to meditate on my opinion. I go deeper and deeper during yesterday’s practice. Although my legs can be straight after some moves my back is like a tree trunk. I need to work on it as well. How can I stretch my back? No idea.

I have no idea about so many things but I will see what my constantly changing variations will bring to me. I am not afraid of future (though I do not have an exact plan) because it is not coming to me BUT I going towards it at full fling.

Have a fearless day.