day 26

today was the worst day since the beginning. i didn't like the video at all. it was full of unnecessary movements and talks. asanas weren't connected and I felt like I was in a gym class. it didn't felt like yoga. maybe it was because of my mood i don't know. 

it was 47 minutes in total but i'm sure at least 15 mins of it passed with talking. yeah of course she was saying nice and funny things but still... i wasnt expecting this after 26 regular days on my matt. i want focusing. i want more meditation more stillness and less talk. these are my thoughts for today's practice.

it's totally normal that you sometimes go for deeper stretching and challenging asanas but sometimes only for a seated pose to calm your mind and spirit without firing your body. i guess today i needed that. but i couldn't realise until I finished my practice. it was a good lesson for me:

always contemplate what you need before stepping on your yoga matt.

I come home. I quickly cook. Then I run to my matt. No resting. No thinking. Why? 

it's not a task. it's not a burden. it's simply a treatment and that's why it shouldn't be hurting my brain. 

on the very first day i told i was discovering me. myself. 

today i've missed the opportunity to explore inside my head. still grateful to realise this by writing and letting myself realise the real thing. 

this is my yoga blog my yoga journey and my training! i needn't keep up with anyone or anything. so what if I passed adriene's video and did something else that I enjoyed more? ha? nothing. 

I tried this posture but of course couldn't make it. I was only able to stand on my hands a few seconds then I collapsed.

you know my attitude towards the movements I cannot. you know I don't mind being at the beginning. 

I have so much way to go. 

It was a good and important lesson for me.

I thank myself for that.