day 24 & 25

is what I've been afraid of becoming real?? am i giving up? do i not have the discipline to continue? nah, friends. i'm still in!

yesterday a very very very lovely friend arrived in istanbul and i needed to see her within a restricted time because she was going back to her hometown at the same night. so, yes i didn't do yoga for more than 24 hours for the first time in 24 days. wow, i am just noticing this coincidence...

i didn’t expect to consume too much alcohol but I did –unfortunately. then it officially became impossible to do yoga BUT i promised myself to wake up earlier and practice just before going to work.

Adriene’s 22^nd day couldn’t be better for the mood I was in.

-         Hungover

-         Dehydrated

-         Tired

-         Unwilling

-         Sleepy

-         Feeling guilty

The practice was only twenty minutes and perfect for a quick morning yoga session. It was a GENTLE PRACTICE!!! I gently cured my body and got rid of the negativity I had. This was also my first morning yoga in 24 days and it felt great.

garudasana, eagle pose

The other video of today –Adriene’s 23^rd day- has even more suited name for me. DISCIPLINE. I formerly mentioned about the discipline I had been lack of in my daily life thus on my yoga matt. What I am trying to through these daily-basis yoga practices is to gain discipline obviously.

“Especially in yoga philosophy, we look at self-discipline as an invitation or a tool to actually liberate you.”

It cannot be explained more clearly. Thanks Adriene, once again. Because of yesterday’s rush and bad choices of beverages I was deadly tired and feeling sick. I I had a sore throat as well as a coming migraine attack. At the office I only dreamed about going back home, taking a shower then sleeping at the earliest hour I could. No yoga. When I came home I ate something and jumped into my bed to rest. I didn’t sleep but I enjoyed being on my own. Does it count as yoga? Hell yeah.

Don’t worry anyways because I actualised the 25^th day of my train of yoga. I could endure all the downward dogs, warriors, planks, chair poses, and even eagle poses. When I was flowing on my matt, I felt like two opposite sides, two different energies were battling inside of me. The energy I created with yoga was defending my body against my very physical illness. It’s even difficult to walk at the house but hey I did yoga? I am genuinely grateful for that emotion of self-care and defence.

Lately I have started to care about my mental health more than my physical one. I don’t choose my food wisely. I eat too much sugar and too much fat. I know I need to do something about that. This is also part of the discipline I should gain.

Today I took a big step because I did yoga twice and one of them was at 7 am… 

I am trying pals. Not giving up. Not discouraging myself. Here to accomplish and to cultivate my existence: